Taken Away

May 30, 2009.

God took away something near and dear to me.

To help me grow. To help me love Him more.

Together

May 27, 2009.

Approximately 10:40pm.

It's Not Too Soon

May 22, 2009.

He told me.

I told him back.

Promise

May 16, 2009.

I made a promise.

I can't wait for what is to come. ^^

Don't Touch Me

I'm so not into you.

Meeting a Celebrity

I met a kccc celebrity a little over a week ago. It was the most exciting thing ever. Then a few days later we added each other on facebook and chatted online too! The 3-hour long conservation was all in Korean and it was AWESOME!

I bought his team donuts for breakfast on Saturday (mainly because I wanted cheer up the lead female vocal since she was feeling under the weather). After his team was done practicing he came up to me and thanked me. It was just him and me in the room and he just proceeded to stand there after he said his thanks. I was so nervous that I just sat there and stared back at him and after about a minute I turned red and ran out. I should have said "you're welcome". OTL

I want his autograph!!!

God Speaks

It's funny how God always seems to point me to the right scriptures in my time of need.

This morning I decided I should go back and reread Matthew. I read 5 chapters and decided I would continue on at work. Well, I'm currently at work and I just came across these verses which come right after The Lord's Prayer:

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. - Matthew 6:14-15

God never ceases to amaze me.

So I'll forgive you and try not to dwell on this any longer.

Forgive and forget. The latter one will be the hard part.

Romans is My Favorite Book

"You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things." - Romans 2:1

I always love rereading Romans. It always encourages me and truly challenges me as well. My favorite verse from the Bible comes from Romans...

"That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." - Romans 10:9

The Divided Heart

Jealousy is the biggest weed of my heart.

It's so hard for me to pull it out.

Let's Talk About Feelings

Love really sucks. I hate all these "feelings" and "emotions" I have. They're nothing but trouble.

While I was trying to study at gateway today I was so frustrated with everybody that I acted like a total bitch. I'm just REALLY struggling with nearly everybody in KCCC right now. I even yelled at a couple people because I was so angry. I just hate the STUPID rules that I REALLY don't agree with and I'm seriously considering leaving the ministry sometime VERY soon.

I feel like I'm being condemned for nothing!!!

I seriously thought I put all my feelings the past.

I guess it was naive of me to think I would be able to forget so quickly...

Feel Better

I hope you feel better soon!

화이팅~!!

Let's Eat

I woke up at 5 in the morning today to make 김밥 for my secret angel. I hope he enjoyed it because I spent a lot of time to make it!

Sarang E-College

I went to Sarang's E-college service today and I really really really liked it. I've been looking for a new church for a while and I think I've finally found one I can settle down in.

I felt as though I wasn't really growing at my old church so I did some research here and there and figured I'd try Sarang out. I was really nervous because I've never ever been to another church besides OMC so I was literally hyperventilating while driving to the church. But everything turned out to be fine.

I'm really excited to start this new chapter in my spiritual life. :)

Vision Reunion

Yesterday was Vision Reunion Gethsemane. I was really excited for it and I was literally doing somersaults and jumping jacks because I was so hyped up for it. haha.

It was really great meeting my vision soon again. *^^*

Spiritual Battle

What a hectic week.

On Tuesday night as Kenny, Esther, and I were heading home from a KCCC event we got into a huge crash. The car flipped over twice and we landed upside down. But I believe God really protected us because we all managed to come out alive with only minor injuries. Though we weren't badly hurt the three of us were rushed to the emergency room after the accident. It was one of the scariest moments of my life.

Also, earlier this week I also had to go to the emergency room because my grandma fainted at church.

I really need to rely on God at times like this but it's not easy.

Happy Birthday!

After KCCC's open chapel yesterday the sophomore girls had a small surprise for me for my 20th birthday! It was really sweet of them and the cake was delicious. :)